You know the feeling when you nuzzle against your special someone, just breating in their scent, your fingers intertwined? And then the touch is gone and you discover that you've been dreaming, but you can still feel the warmth, feel the long, slender fingers on your skin? And your heart aches, tears sting in your eyes...
Then you know precisely how I felt when I woke up this morning. This sense of loss of something I never had to begin with, but could still feel it...
And then I've come to work, looked at the roster for February and discovered that my name is not on it. So I asked the supervisor and she said: "We need someone reliable, who's not looking for another job. And you are."
Of course I am, the pay is so small, I can't survive on that and they told me to let them know that I'm looking for better job, so I did. And now they can't trust me, because I can leave on moment's notice.
And now I feel like my whole world is falling apart. And I don't know what I should do.
But when I read my fortune cookie for today, it said: "Fear knocked at the door. Faith answered. No one was there."
And I thought... what if everything that's happened is a part of something bigger?
I need to believe it, because if I don't... I will fall apart.